Man, a lot of stuff happened last night I'm not sure where to start. I'm really curious how you sensed that guy so easily and how fast you moved and that different outfit you were in too.
So you just got them both from nowhere? I guess maybe they kinda came to you when you really needed them, or something like that. I got all three of mine from Juudai so I've never had one really just come out of nowhere, other than being able to evolve Hope to Hope Ray.
... Sort of I guess. I just felt them when I was feeling angry. And. They just responded and came to me. It's. Hard to explain. As I'm generally angry and annoyed, but the Numbers both came when I was feeling rather furious in particular.
About being attacked. Abused. Treated like trash. I. Don't want to be trash again.
Sort of... it's hard to explain. I grew up in an orphanage where basically all the kids were... awful to each other and the madam running the place was just as bad and encouraged it. I ended up being called "Akuma" because I was especially nasty.
... Then I ended up being used by my Dueling manager to try and end the world, which I wanted. At the time. Because I was. Bitter.
After that I kind of became homeless until Mom decided to drag me to her home one night, even though I didn't want it.
I... hate feeling powerless and useless. I. Don't want to be worthless or a mess again.
I have a lot of anger and resentment and general hatred towards the world. You. Everyone. I've. Gotten better but there's still a lot deep down.
I guess if growing up, all you knew was people using you and being awful to you, I can see why you'd feel anger towards everything. That kinda stuff really leaves pretty deep marks in people. It takes a super long time to heal and sometimes may never really heal fully.
But, y'know, I don't think you'll ever go back to that again! No one is useless or worthless and that includes you! I mean, you have a family now, and friends! I think that being able to rise above all that's happened to you in the past shows that you're a super strong person! Even if you have hatred towards everything, including me, that's fine. It's understandable that it'll take time for you to really fully trust others, but no matter what, I'll always believe in you 100%!
... I agree. And I don't want to go back to that again. That's why. I've been trying to make friends. To move on, and become the girl... the woman I can be, instead of the girl I was.
It's just, if you see me angry, that's kind of the original, real me. And it's taking a lot of work to fix that. If it can even be fixed.
I believe it can be fixed! Even if not fully, I'm sure you'll find a place where you can feel comfortable with who you are! And even if the you who you were back then leaks through, you have your family and friends here to remind you of the person you are now!
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Man, a lot of stuff happened last night I'm not sure where to start.
I'm really curious how you sensed that guy so easily and how fast you moved and that different outfit you were in too.
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It gives me faster reflexes, an alternate body, and better senses.
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I also didn't realize you had Numbers Cards like I did until last night.
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I did the same thing with Number 85: Crazy Box in another Duel where um. Professor Futaba was brainwashed by a witch who is now my mother's cousin.
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...you have a really interesting family.
So you just got them both from nowhere? I guess maybe they kinda came to you when you really needed them, or something like that.
I got all three of mine from Juudai so I've never had one really just come out of nowhere, other than being able to evolve Hope to Hope Ray.
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... Sort of I guess. I just felt them when I was feeling angry. And. They just responded and came to me. It's. Hard to explain. As I'm generally angry and annoyed, but the Numbers both came when I was feeling rather furious in particular.
About being attacked. Abused. Treated like trash. I. Don't want to be trash again.
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I remember you saying that during the duel.
I know you've mentioned before, that you didn't have a great life in the past.
Is that how people treated you back then?
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... Then I ended up being used by my Dueling manager to try and end the world, which I wanted. At the time. Because I was. Bitter.
After that I kind of became homeless until Mom decided to drag me to her home one night, even though I didn't want it.
I... hate feeling powerless and useless. I. Don't want to be worthless or a mess again.
I have a lot of anger and resentment and general hatred towards the world. You. Everyone. I've. Gotten better but there's still a lot deep down.
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I guess if growing up, all you knew was people using you and being awful to you, I can see why you'd feel anger towards everything. That kinda stuff really leaves pretty deep marks in people. It takes a super long time to heal and sometimes may never really heal fully.
But, y'know, I don't think you'll ever go back to that again! No one is useless or worthless and that includes you! I mean, you have a family now, and friends! I think that being able to rise above all that's happened to you in the past shows that you're a super strong person!
Even if you have hatred towards everything, including me, that's fine. It's understandable that it'll take time for you to really fully trust others, but no matter what, I'll always believe in you 100%!
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It's just, if you see me angry, that's kind of the original, real me. And it's taking a lot of work to fix that. If it can even be fixed.
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I believe it can be fixed! Even if not fully, I'm sure you'll find a place where you can feel comfortable with who you are! And even if the you who you were back then leaks through, you have your family and friends here to remind you of the person you are now!
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Thanks...
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No problem, Akae!
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Thanks! I'll keep that in mind!
Same to you!